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*2012*

突然回想起来，三年前的自己在堪培拉的一幢房子的二楼面对窗户的桌子上写了一篇文章。
里面说到，“如果明天是世界末日，我想要拥抱每一个人，然后静静地和大家呆在一起。”
后来也不止一次的提到对生离死别的看法。
同学室友自杀、汶川地震，全都一次又一次的给我震撼。

今晚也是一样的。
在电影院看《2012》，不同寻常的而且甚至我也自认为很白痴的，我几乎哭了整场。
一开始被那样惊心动魄的场面吓哭了，再之后就很难再控制自己。
父母对子女的保护感动我，总统的爱国爱民与民同在的精神鼓舞我，朋友千里迢迢的临终告别电话以及船长那通未能与儿子说上话的电话提醒我，人类对死亡的恐惧震惊我……
而每每想到自身情况，想到现在坐在我周围前后的人到时候都将不再如现在一般安然在电影院享受灾难片的大场景和俗套英雄主义剧情，我就感谢现在的生活。

作为含蓄的中国人，很多时候我们不会把爱或者感谢或者道歉的字眼挂在嘴边。
而是自认为行动表示出来就足够了。
但有时候，语言的魔力无穷大。
很多话，一定要在当下说出来。感谢你，对不起，我爱你，我永远都相信温暖的字眼。
它们是我们绝望时透过云层照耀着大地的阳光。
这样的电影，不论多少楼房坍塌，多少人惨烈死去，最后永远给你希望的彩虹。
明亮，美好。

看完以后，我突然觉得学精算有什么用，算人类生生死死算哪类险种最适合谁谁，到最后也都抵不过学会用藏语请求别人。
当然，最想做的是去学开飞机。

总之，这部电影，特效逼真刺激，双线剧情还凑合。不过中国元素的加入或多或少有奇怪的感觉。

最后还有个疑问，“诺亚方舟”在西藏造好，用了无数中国廉价劳动力，最后也慷慨地让许多workers上了船，那么在经历海啸火山地震暴雪撞冰山种种灾难之后剩下最多的种族是中国人？

*休息*

没错，一年多来我第一次可以很骄傲地说，我闲了。
考完试也暂时不想成绩结果如何，也不愿去找新的工作上班挣钱。
只想在家里上上网，看看书，弹弹琴，过个放松的生活。
其实也期待着去这里那里旅游，可是没有资金帮助想法也只能是虚空。

假期里，几件事情是定下来的目标。
为日语2级自学，尽管不考试但也为明年做准备吧。
玩通魔方，越多解法越好。
稍微多花点时间弹琴，啊哈。
尽量是这些，可能还会想到更多的。

*情绪*

纠结了将近一个月之后，或者说一年多以后，我做了决定。
当然了，是不让自己后悔的决定。
深知自己的细节控在生活上其实很麻烦，但也只能像老妈说的平常心态去面对，没有必要想太多。
好吧，那我去做了喔！

BY 眼睛红肿辛苦等待网络新流量到来的小桑

 

I’m now doing assignment which is due on Friday, also preparing a bit for Tuesday’s presentation. Luckily this time my group members are all quite responsible and everyone is doing their job properly, so even though this project is time-consuming, it’s better than any group assignment with people who never contributes.

However, I’ve been lacking of motivations for the past week, time range includes now. That’s why I’m procrastinating here and decide to continue working later.

I had a longer-than-usual prayer after I came home today, all because I was encouraged and reminded a lot by today’s WCIA.

Yes, sharing gospel with parents is a good thing, but it’s very difficult and needs a lot of communication skills. Therefore, communications with parents are very important, though there will always be hard conversations. Why there are hard conversations? Because whenever we have to choose between God and parents, we always give priority to God and which parents are not pleasant with. For example, parents want us to be the top students in university, have a great job, earn a huge amount of money, marry a good/rich/beautiful/… man (woman for guys), the list goes on and on. The thing is, they will never be satisfied. But we do whatever we can to glorify God, we do not and should not put any other stuff before God. And also, parents are not consistent with what they said or what they did. On the other hand, God never changes, He is the only one consistent, always does things He said. Interestingly, the reason why we honour/care our parents is not because they raise us up, they gave us birth not those reasons Chinese always being proud of, but God’s commandment. It does sound harsh, yet we can not put God’s word away ‘cause its harshness.

When dealing with Jesus’s return, I’m always bit pessimistic. Yes, I do look forward to seeing that and waiting for it, but, what about my mum who refuses God after occasionally attended church and bible reading for 2 years. What if Jesus will come back tomorrow, is the call I made to her today will be the last one, EVER? I also pushed myself as I am the tool that God is gonna use to call my mum to His kingdom, but God is God, He will use all kinds of medium/people/events to do that, even letting His only son Jesus die on the cross. All I need is to continuously pray to God, pray that He soften people’s hearts, pray that He can still use me as His tool, pray for patience and wisdom so that we can live as Jesus is our model and treat our parents lovingly. I also thank God for giving me such a great mother who raise me up by herself, thank God for giving me such a great fellowship within it brothers and sisters encourage and care of each others. God has His plans, I should be patient, and following Him consistently as He is unchanged.

hmm, I'm now sleepy and going to rest for a few hours before tomorrow morning's church sermon.